iamlesley

A thought

Tue, 10 Aug 2010 18:40:41 -0400

I believe people are more afraid of the present judgement of Christians than they are of the future judgement of God.

I also believe for that, Christians are partially responsible. This includes me. This makes me very sad and very encouraged to love more people with all of my heart, not just the convenient parts.

Day 1: Remember the Beauty of the Cause

Mon, 12 Jul 2010 13:37:22 -0400

July 12God is light. That’s believable. I like images. Senses tied to feelings. Touch. Taste sometimes. Smell for memories, conjures them often. They are fast, usually too fast to make sense of. I think that is the reason smelling too many or too much gives people headaches. Overloads the memory drive. But when thinking of God, it makes sense, transcendent understanding, to say that He is light. I think of myself as a blue, fluid and somewhat cloudy, but smooth and liquid. God, however, cannot be defined but a color I have seen. Light doesn’t have one color. It’s just… puoooosh! Sometimes it flashes like through lines of trees on a road trip in the mountains. Oh hello God. Ah hello again. Hey—Hi—oh, hi there. It’s… confusing. I usually look away. But light is often different. Sometimes it is like warm butter sliding under the crack in the window sill onto my lap. I feel held. Then I take the best naps. And finally there is the source. The steady sun, its stoic dependability and rotating sameness. I see it everyday and am always moved by its power. Silent, solitary chief of the skies with arms that enfold the Earth, its people. The galaxy dances and chants around its blaze. This sounds like God. Looks, feels, smells, tastes like Him. I guess it is something to be feared so says my common sense. Light could blind, burn, explode but I’m kind of like a moth in that for the moment before, long or short, I don’t care. The Light is enough.

Link to the blogging I've been doing

Sun, 11 Jul 2010 18:44:32 -0400

I don’t know why I haven’t been doing it on tumblr. lol. Really there is no excuse. They are in order

July 10

Packing packing packing

July 11

Packing: finished. Will of God? Just beginning

Church was AHMAYZEENG. I needed more emphasis than caps lock could give. God was moving, THAT was doubtless. We talked about trusting God and radical commitment to Christ. In Sunday School we’ve been reading and studying and discussing and discovering Luke 12: 22-34 This is the passage about worry, entitled “Do not worry” Travis gave me an idea with the interpretation of this passage. Every time Jesus says “Do not worry” replace these words with “Trust me” and clarity floods the text. Here are some examples. “22 Then Jesus said to his disciples ‘Therefore I tell you, about your life and what you will eat, about your body and what you will wear… 29 And do not set your heart on what you eat or drink; …” It isn’t merely not worrying. It is trusting God, and in doing so, seeking God above all of my worries. In “Big Church” (I love how I still call it that :-P), we studied Acts 20: 22-24. This guy… wow. It is so interesting to me that all of these fictional heroes that I find so inspiring (Aragorn, Gandalf, Samwise and Frodo, Harry and Ron, Dumbledore) and are so heralded are nothing compared to this real guy, Paul, who was a radical follower of God. He took action. He gave rousing speeches that gave hope and courage and worth to thousands and this is just what God did through one man. Why then, do I think of all these fictional characters as heroes before I think of this rock solid man of faith? Maybe because it is cliche. I tend to stay away from cliches to feel more intelligent. I want to have this real, historical, not in any way fairy tale dedication to God! I can think of nothing more gratifying (that’s right, more gratifying than saving middle earth/the wizarding world) than praising the most beautiful creature in all the universe (Read Revelation 1:12-17. A physical description of the our world’s God. Can anything be more magnificently real? I weep when I read this.) and sharing it with people I knew on Earth. The more people I tell, the more will praise the Holy God in heaven and the more fellowship and the more love… wow!!

So I’ve decided to take this week to fill myself with God as to be a prepared vessel in the airport this weekend. I will take this very long flight to speak with a person God will show me about Him and the beauty of His gift, glory, eternity… so many things, but most of all, His love; His very nature. I’m so happy. I feel more free when I commit myself to God’s will than I ever feel doing anything else. Anyway, that is all for now. Whew. Just unlocked my heart to this web page!

speechless

Mon, 24 May 2010 19:25:02 -0400

Revelation 1:12-18

I turned around to see the voice that was speaking to me. And when I turned I saw seven golden lampstands, and among the lampstands was someone like a son of man, dressed in a robe reaching down to his feet and with a golden sash around his chest. His head and hair were white like wool, as white as snow, and his eyes were like blazing fire. His feet were like bronze glowing in a furnace, and his voice was like the sound of rushing waters. In his right hand he held seven stars, and out of his mouth came a sharp double edged sword. His face was like the sun shining in all its brilliance. When I saw am, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then he placed his right hand on me and said: Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One: I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever!

Happy 1 yr and 9 months anniversary of the most full of love moment in my life.

Fri, 14 May 2010 23:48:10 -0400

Happy 1 yr and 9 months anniversary of the most full of love moment in my life.

This day of theater history presentations has inspired me.

Tue, 20 Apr 2010 11:51:07 -0400

I have realized that I love Augusto Boal and specactors and Maria Irene Fornes. I will be reading their works. This is my favorite class period so far. AWESOME. I am inspired. I want to leave school and do “odd jobs” like every other renowned thespian pursuing my craft, living on passion and being happy. That’s what I want!!

I am only conflicted because I know I don’t know everything.

This is all. More later.

More of Mexico! …Hmm… apparently one can only post...

Mon, 29 Mar 2010 19:08:56 -0400

More of Mexico!

…Hmm…

apparently one can only post a certain amount of pictures per post. Good to know. :)

(courtesy of Meredith Hardy)

This is our week in Mexico :) More pictures soon.

Wed, 24 Mar 2010 16:58:40 -0400

This is our week in Mexico :) More pictures soon.

Mexico Mission Trip

Mon, 22 Mar 2010 12:03:05 -0400

Perspective changing, humbling, soul-inspiring, Spirit-moving. Pictures soon. Summary later. Sleep now.

The Odd Couple is over! Discussing Mother Courage and her Children and Six Characters in Search of...

Thu, 04 Mar 2010 11:29:35 -0500

The Odd Couple is over! Discussing Mother Courage and her Children and Six Characters in Search of an Author. I love theater :)

tumblr.ing

Fri, 26 Feb 2010 19:05:00 -0500

Hey. I got one of these so I could follow my friend Caitlin’s photography blog. So anyone who happens to visit my blog should visit hers because she’s the reason I am here. It is called http://beautyofyou.tumblr.com She’s an amazing photographer and one of the greatest girls in the world. She will be posting her work so check it out. As for me, I had trouble posting a picture at all on this thing… we’ll see how it goes.

This is me December2009

Fri, 26 Feb 2010 11:52:22 -0500

This is me December2009